Did I die or did I live? I cannot remember
My past seems to be my future
My future is my present
And my present is my past
Am I dead or am I alive? I cannot remember


I once lived the life of a child
Once I was a young man
Lost in the happiness that youth brings
I loved a girl once
Knew her name, Ginny I think it was
Did she live or did she die? I cannot remember


She loved me I loved her
But maybe I wasn’t enough
She left to somewhere I can’t see
Somewhere I do not live
No, they took her did they not?
Did she laugh at me or did she cry? I cannot remember


Sometimes it comes to me in flashes
This images of her face, her red lashes
I feel warmth throughout my being
Did I want to run away with her did I care? I cannot remember


At night when my mind
Flickers between life and death
I sense her body next to me
I see an image, something unexplained
Her lips quiver almost as if from the cold
Did I turn the heater on, or is it off? I cannot remember


And slowly she raises her hands
Wipes my feverish brow
And lets her lips linger against my ear
‘I am here Draco, do not move’
I lay still beneath her quiet murmurings
What was my job, do I have one? I cannot remember


Yes, indeed I used to do magic
For all the people of the world
Dark Arts would fill my being
And the tricks would come one after another
Then I felt jealousy
Did I have a lot of money or not? I cannot remember


I can hear a voice above me now
Where are you, who are you?
And as I turn to ask my love
I see she is flitting away
I try to hang on to her
Is she real or just an illusion? I cannot remember


Then she is gone
But I know she will return
Again tomorrow night
After my magic tricks are done
I’ve always loved her have I not?


She is dead is she not?
Yet I can see her can I not?
Will this fever never end?
Will my Ginny be whole again?
I knew a Ginny did I not?
I cannot remember